For the first time in many years, I cried. Not tears of joy, but tears of pain.

The most painful and hurting part is where I was being backstabbed. But even worse, the person did it unintentionally. It hurts so much. I can't tell him what he has done, nor can I do anything about it. It hurts alot.

Sometimes in our lives we face many problems. As people say, we must have the courage to carry on. But what if we have lost the courage? What if we're sick of life and are on the verge of giving up, but the world still pushes you down? Why subject to mental torture? Does having fun always have a consequence? I can't think straight now. Not when I'm floating on the brink of unconsiousness.

I have been backstabbed unintentionally for five times since the start of the term. Itz truly incredible I never saw it coming. What was life a term ago has been changed by exams. I feel lost and this time there's no guiding light to bring me forward. All I can do is live by the day.

Intellects may be smart, but they have feelings too... please respect them as they will respect you... To be hurt is something unavoidable. Staying strong is something impossible in this society. And the worse, facing your challenges is the beginning of a new problem. A problem that can never be solved.

Everybody wishes their life can be changed for the better. So do I. But I can't...